Donna, still praying for you and your family. Miss you very much on EBN,but I know when you are ready,you will be back. When I lost my husband,I had no one,and still don't. One thing I tried to do was tell myself how lucky I was to have had him. The why will never be answered. The love will last forever. Being thankful for the time you had is the only way you can try to think of things. Sending much love and prayer to you and your husband. Hold on to each other.God give you strength to get through.